8th July

Tonight I want to write... but I don't know what's inside my heart.

Jimmie and Candelyn have just left and Dr. Littlejohn arrived in Hong Kong last night. It's great to have somebody visit from the other side of the globe (and the other end of the time-line).

What's memory? Memory is not from the past. It belongs to the present moment for it's revealing our present self. Along our growth memories change. It's changing... changing... changing...Sometimes I sail upsteam. I'd meet the self that I don't know anymore. I just give her up.

I decided to quit my job as a hostel tutor. I would miss everyone...still I have an urge to start a new journey.

might go to New York City for Christmas. Linda, Laura and Leslie should be there. but if I want to visit Steve and Taye, Laura and Nadeen (and the dogs!), I have to go back to L.A. I miss Nashville too. Yet I've just realised that nobody's there now... Could I do both? I would love to be in L.A. esp. when I think of the cold in NYC. I wish Stanley to be with me, which I guess is impossible. Sometimes I'd be scared to aware how much I rely on him.